Erling E.
09-09-2005, 10:47 AM
Warning: This is going to be quite sentimental.
I am single for the first time in almost six years. The girl I have been with since I was sixteen (I am now twenty-one, very soon twenty-two), is no longer my girlfriend. We have parted ways. I am happy about it and so is she. There is no going back, and neither of us want to do that. She has moved on, so must I. We both knew it was coming. We both know its the right thing to do. But I've never been so scared in a long, long time.
I have been together with this person - almost every day - for so many years. We have only been apart once before, last year, when we had a few weeks pause. But it picked up again. In the end it felt like we were the same person. You know you feel that way when you suddenly have this strange feeling - a few rare moments - thinking "Wow, you are actually another person". We started dating when we were both sixteen.
The years we have spent together are probably those years where you develop most as a person in your entire life. I think that is the reason why we have ended it now. We have grown too different. We want different things. Love was lost along the way. It became a loving friendship. I couldn't possibly see myself married to her 50 years from now. But again, this is frightening. Being all alone. At least she is among her friends and family.
You see, I have moved to another city. I have really no friends here. I am all alone and I live for my work right now. I have seriously never felt so alone in my entire life. In one way it feels right. This is how it must be. But at the same time I feel so terribly afraid. I don't want to be alone. I'm not going to jump on the dating scene, but I want to find the person who I can connect with entirely. The girl who is meant to be with me. You know.
I don't believe in trying a bunch of girls to see if I can find the right one. I'm far, far, far, far too "romantic". I'm not the sort of person who runs out on a nightclub and pick up girls. I don't want to cheapen my previous relationship by running out to find someone new. When she comes along, she comes along. Everything will happen naturally, I guess. Right now the only person I can think of is myself. And that's a bit sad. I'm a very social person!
Anyway. Linda, thanks for all the years we had together. I know you don't read these forums, but I say it here anyway. You really made my life worth a lot more than it ever could without you. Even though we were never meant to be, I feel rich having known you. You are a star in a universe of darkness, and you'll shine for someone who really is meant for you some day. You'll always have a place in my heart and in my mind.
Sorry for a long post.
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
F**king high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.
I am single for the first time in almost six years. The girl I have been with since I was sixteen (I am now twenty-one, very soon twenty-two), is no longer my girlfriend. We have parted ways. I am happy about it and so is she. There is no going back, and neither of us want to do that. She has moved on, so must I. We both knew it was coming. We both know its the right thing to do. But I've never been so scared in a long, long time.
I have been together with this person - almost every day - for so many years. We have only been apart once before, last year, when we had a few weeks pause. But it picked up again. In the end it felt like we were the same person. You know you feel that way when you suddenly have this strange feeling - a few rare moments - thinking "Wow, you are actually another person". We started dating when we were both sixteen.
The years we have spent together are probably those years where you develop most as a person in your entire life. I think that is the reason why we have ended it now. We have grown too different. We want different things. Love was lost along the way. It became a loving friendship. I couldn't possibly see myself married to her 50 years from now. But again, this is frightening. Being all alone. At least she is among her friends and family.
You see, I have moved to another city. I have really no friends here. I am all alone and I live for my work right now. I have seriously never felt so alone in my entire life. In one way it feels right. This is how it must be. But at the same time I feel so terribly afraid. I don't want to be alone. I'm not going to jump on the dating scene, but I want to find the person who I can connect with entirely. The girl who is meant to be with me. You know.
I don't believe in trying a bunch of girls to see if I can find the right one. I'm far, far, far, far too "romantic". I'm not the sort of person who runs out on a nightclub and pick up girls. I don't want to cheapen my previous relationship by running out to find someone new. When she comes along, she comes along. Everything will happen naturally, I guess. Right now the only person I can think of is myself. And that's a bit sad. I'm a very social person!
Anyway. Linda, thanks for all the years we had together. I know you don't read these forums, but I say it here anyway. You really made my life worth a lot more than it ever could without you. Even though we were never meant to be, I feel rich having known you. You are a star in a universe of darkness, and you'll shine for someone who really is meant for you some day. You'll always have a place in my heart and in my mind.
Sorry for a long post.
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
F**king high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.