The hardest thing ever

[Elenial]

Firs off a little background. Two years ago we lost my dad's identical twin to lung cancer. Around fall of last year my dad fell very ill with a very rare disease. He was better over the summer, had a bit more energy, went golfing. His blood count was going up on its own. We were all so happy.

A month or so ago the doctor told him that his bone marrow had been ravaged from this disease and no longer works. He would die from a transplant and if her survived the surgery the recovery would kill him.

Since then things have only gone down hill. He has been spitting up blood and in the hospital barely able to breathe. They can not put him on a resperator because they fear it would cause him to bleed to death. Last night they moved him to the critical care unit. They think his lungs are filling up with blood, and with his blood cell count being so low anything they do to try and clear it will most likely kill him.

Yesterday he asked us to pay off the house and take everything out of his name and put it in my mom's name and my name. I refused to sign the title of the house period. I have not given up all hope. I have hope that he will be better and he will be home. I pray to God every moment of every day that he will get better.

Right now we need a miracle. I am not ready to lose the greatest man I know.

[bob the goat]

My prayers are with you.

[Eithne]

People know when its time. I am praying for you and your father. Make sure that you fulfill his wishes before he goes, and dont forget to say good bye. I never got a chance to say good bye to my grandpa and I still feel it to this day nearly 2 yrs later. My pop was the greatest man I ever knew.

[Aerrn]

I will remember you and your family in my prayers.

[Nymph]

Aww darlin' HUGS, and my prayers are with you

[Dilorenzo]

My thoughts are with you and your family in this hard time.

[Lirren]

Oh, dear. /hugs to you. I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts.

[Rookie]

Hey man, i am very sorry to hear that.

Hopefully he makes a speedy recovery.

[Da_Dude]

I honestly would love to tell you the answer to this, but int he end its up to you. But I will say this making your dad feel secure about his passing is somthing you can do to ease his worry, somthing he probably needs right less of right now. Signing that paper is not signing your dad to death anymore than someone getting life insurance is, its all just a precaution. Just somthing to think about. When he gets better you can have him sign it back to his name. Hope he gets better. Good luck to him and you.

[Elenial]

I just got in from the hospital. It seems they gave my father chemo Thursday afternoon. He passed out around midnight. While his vitals are good he is unresponsive. They have since put him on a machiene that forces his breathing. We are praying this brings him back around since his co2 levels were very high.

He was doing so well for 2 days then they went and gave him chemo. I do not know what I am more upset about right now the fact they did that or the fact he is not responding at the moment.

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. God Bless.

[Satrah]

Sorry.....I can never really give pleasent answers to problems like these.

I wish though I could make it all better. I know inside you feel rather wrenched around and heartbroken.

For his peace of mind though....sign the papers. It's a precaution he needs. Might be one of the thing he won't need to worry about so that he can concentrate on getting better.

Sadly, there is something you need to do (whether he goes or not...it is needed...you might not get a second chance...and if he does make it...he will feel better knowing this.) Let him know how much he means to you...Really. Let him know how much you love him. It's something he needs to know. It's something you need to say...cause if he does die, it's probably going to hurt if you haven't already told him.

This is the part that hurts, if he knows he is not doing any better...let him know you love him...and let him go. *tries to not cry herself* I know....not fun to hear people say that. It hurt when my grandmother died.

I really and truely and honestly hope your father gets better. I am sorry....

[Puckster]

I am so sorry to hear this. My heart goes out to you. I think everyone has already said it, but I agree. Do as he asks. If it's his time, or not, (and I truly hope it's not) it would make him feel much better and more secure.
I wish you and your family the best.

[Elenial]

We said goodbye to my father Friday night. They felt he had a stroke late Thursday night. It was all very peaceful. He was surrounded by my brother, my mom and myself. We all know he is in a better place now and there is no more sickness or pain for him.
Thank you all for your support and prayers.

[Insomniac]

May he rest in peace.

[Satrah]

*hugs* sorry...

*lends shoulder and a few hankies to be cried into and such*

I know how it hurts...I know it's not the same pain I went through when I had to let my grandmother go...

But..you've got people that care, here and off the boards. *hugs again* We're pretty much willing to lend an ear and a shoulder and we don't mind the damp spots you leave on em.